like a roller coaster. up gradually, slowly, a steady pace full of steady reassurance. and then at the peak, everything turns downward. the fall towards the floor isn’t nearly so gradual. picking up speed, losing control so only splashes of color and hidden emotions register. Everything around feels so steady, so stable. but the spinning doesn’t stop. not until everything is black and exhaustion overcomes.
when the darkness lifts, the roller coaster has slowed, but a churning sea remains. hot, unpredictable, and ready to boil over. now is the time to regain control, to find out where the next climb to the peak begins. it’s time to create a new beginning. like being trapped in a dream, legs heavy, heart and soul screaming, the real work begins. step by step, moving forward, one foot in front of the other. hope guides this shaken journey, hope protects it from the uncertain ending. one foot in front of the other. one, two, one, two, one, two, one…